I didn't start feeling deeply for her until a school field trip on the 13th of june; the 2nd last day of the school year, where we went to Kings Dominion. The first half, I was with some other friends, but I couldn't help but notice that something felt off. Yes, I was having a good time, but I just felt incomplete. I decided to go with her group instead, and I am glad I did. It's amazing, really, how she makes me feel. At the end of the day, our group thought we would've had dinner there, but we didn't. We were also put on different busses, and here arrived sooner than mine. I was torn, and I think that was the first time I had cried in a very long time. I didn't even get a chance to say goodbye

Not much happened between us during the summer, and I didn't get many chances to see her during then. And then 9th grade year began. Our school made us do a photo shoot thing, and when I saw her, my heart skipped a few beats, and I was just standing there, in amazement of how beautiful she was. Sometime i believe in October or November, I started having doubts, about myself, the people i trust, and even her. She is one of the few people I can actually trust, and probably the only one I've told about the doubts, regrets, and dark feelings I've hidden for so long. That might be one reason I like her; because of what she's done for me. She makes me feel safe, cared for, and even loved and important.