Kendrick Lamar is a good rapper I think. Anyway. I have nothing going for me, I have nothing set up for me. I can’t go to collage after high school. I’m not going to be able to do what k want to in life It’s all the same. I hate going to school because it’s so ****ing draining and I pray for the weekend to come and then k spend those two days ****ing depressed and trying not to Kms. I do like school, don’t get me wrong. But it’s so draining. Not to mention those ****ing retarded freaks that keep trying to touch me and shit in gym class. Im pretty sure the only person I look forward to seeing ****ing hates me. He outright ignores me during weekends and then always acts pissed in person. And he also is just ****ing mean. But my god do I love him. Idk. But he’s gay.and. I’m trans, so like. I’m pretty sure I have no shot with him anyway, so idk why I keep hoping that maybe when I’m around him somethingll happen. It’s probably a toxic relationship or smth. I am a ****ing whore.

Im a sick sadistic bastard

I can’t breathe right now. It keeps happening to me. Idk why. But like, my chest gets all tight. It’s like there’s like a 30 pound weight on my chest. And it gets hard to think. Maybe I’m just retarded