WHY ME!? WHY?! FUCK FUCK FUCK
by:
Hai-Frendz 
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02.06.2021
24 comments
Hai-Frendz[OP]
02.06.2021 22:12
LinkHaha first I find out my friend ben might go somewhere bc of his anger issues
THEN I find out that my Bsf (online and offline) is going to a mental hospital in the next few hours.
Hai-Frendz[OP]
02.06.2021 22:14
LinkGods life just loves grabbing me by the hair, ripping my happiness away and throwing it out the window.. I feel like a toy that life is using me for another person's character development
Hai-Frendz[OP]
02.06.2021 22:19
LinkGtg, if I'm not back in less than 5 hours
Im either
Dead
Passed out
Listening to music
Crying bc I can't take it
Or...
Doing smth I can't mention on here
Hai-Frendz[OP]
02.06.2021 22:44
LinkWhy do you ppl talk to me? ..I feel like I need to be better to even be accepted or acknowledged by you ppl..
Bestie,, it's okay, none of these things you can control. So don't kill yourself, don't cut yourself, or any other harm on that matter.
You have to stay calm and be there for the people you care about, they need you more now more than ever.
I'm sorry.. but it's too late..plus
..they only need me when I'm not there..
But when I turn around.. they're following someone else or they're alone feeling sad..
Hey,, I went through a past of self harm, and if anything bad went wrong I thought "I can always kill myself"
At one point I almost convenienced myself to but my friend got worried and told my parents.
You're not going to get better without help, I'm still not 100% I still cry and stress but I know that I have a place here on this world.
There are better ways to cope other then cutting or starving, you can draw, write, even unhealthy habits can get better,,
Like,, instead of cutting, put red coloring on ice and rub it anywhere you have the urge to cut!
There are ways to get better
I'll try to help you every step of the way if you need me to, any time you lose a friend or something close, I'll be there to talk
I've lost most of my friends moral support and I've lost all of my familys love
The next thing I have to lose is my life, bc the world has clearly shown me all I am here for is someone else's character development..I have no place here.. I want the ppl who made me suffer through hell and back to feel pity for me and themselves.. I want them to be ashamed..
I felt the same way, but you just have to trust me
It's not going to be a fast and easy change,, it will take time and effort but I will try my best if it's what you need
I have no effort left.. I'm not allowed to see my friends bc I fell behind on school after my mom set me up for some program where I'm supposed to keep EVERYTHING in check.. the stress is too much.. I can't take it and I deeply apologize
Hey hey hey hey,, you need to listen to me
I get it, you feel left behind, you feel used, I get it but I'm trying to help to my best capabilities
I'll tell you what,, do you have discord?
I'll give you my discord,, or you can give me mine, I'll check up on you everyday and I'll let you vent to me, and in return I get to see you try to improve :)
I think it will be the best option for you that way you can rely on something until you get better
Alive#7957
Alright,, I just want to make sure you stay safe and anytime you get sad and feel the urge to hurt yourself, message me right away, I try to answer as fast as I can
Can you re type it but space out the second part? I'm not sure I'm spelling it right ;^^