I have nine strikes of it all over my body which makes sense, probably more by now, two of them(the strikes) are babesia which is the attack of red blood cells Aka: babesiosis I have muscle pains, joint pains, and loss of balance. I also get dizzy often, migraines/headaches I see floating spots every now and then and these weird clear floating things??? And I also see phantoms. I get facial twitches and sometimes half of my eye goes blurry, ringing in ears, and more, too tired to think of them all. This has caused me to have troubles in dance class, I've made a pretty decent and large friend group and dance but I haven't been attending classes for over a month because my pains have kept on increasing. I'm not on treatment yet because we're having extreme financial issues and we can't afford to pay for treatment but I'm able to survive on Tylenol and constant drinking of water and rest And leaving dance for a bit has caused me to loose friends Lyme also affects me being able to do my school work, I've

Been doing online school for about 5-6 years now, but sometimes the pains gets so bad I can't continue, So now it's week ten and I'm only on week three Because I'm caught up in school work I've most of my school friends And now that Casper a lot of my friends left with him, and Casper leaving me and flipanim made me not want to be on flipanim much which caused me to loose more online friends and I barely have anybody, I can't complain to my grandma because she'll just say "in the name of god youre healed, you will not be in pain" or "you'll grow into one tall girl one day" saying once again that its growing pains. Just because you work in a hospital doesn't mean you know everything grandma </3 I'm shut out from my brother and I can't really open up to anybody. I hate complaining Ice and Kory because they already have too much on their shoulders and I know theyre not showing it but I know they have problems of their own and I don't want to put more weight on them, I've tried to make friends on YouTube but t

-they just delete my comments I'm just lacking the support I need from family, I need more friends, I've practically lost everybody, besides ice and kory but like I said they aren't my garbage can for me just to throw all of my trash(problems) in, and I have too much going on I just don't know what to do, I'm overwhelmed and in pain, I'm lonely I need someone to hug I need a hug That's all I want I just want somebody to say "I love you" and actually mean it I want somebody to take me hiking on the first date I just need somebody to love and to love me I just feel so lonely

This is probably so overwhelming I'm so so sorry this is so much to process I should've made this private aha, not asking for pity don't say "its fine" or something because mmm 🍻 Wow root beer 🐛

Haha help 🐜

Sorry for venting so much something really hit me and made me upset (not anything on fa) So I just needed to type everything out Hope u understand :)