This is an example of how I feel. I feel because of the people on this site I can't fully express and be me, I feel like I have to mask it and hide the way I really feel. I feel if I show that I'm always on the verge of breaking down that people won't find me cool. The fear of people abandoning me does exist and it eats me up heavily. I don't want to sit down and pretend I'm okay if I'm not, and some people just don't understand that, So I'm going to open up more in the online world and in real life, which is why i share bits of it with you guys