Basically a Public post of songs i start to write poems i never finish or post and rants about dumbthings

yes im fine no matter what i post here because my music and poems are meant to shine light on mental illness and other dark things

If i could hear you i would've listen for hours on end But im stuck with the screaming thoughts in my head To scared and hopeless to get out of my bed What did i do was it something i said? If i would've seen your problems when they arrived i would've tried to help instead of watching you cry, but my brain tells me its better this way, because i'll never end up finding the right things to say. And im sorry i cant help you, trust me im trying to to, But how can i be there for you, when i have issues i cant even get through? How can i help someone else when i can't even help myself How can i not break down infront of you when all my thoughts and walls are crumbling too how can i not sit here crying how can i stop the lying why do i feel like dying? Is it a problem worth satisfying or should i breathe stop hugging my knees start doing the things i know i can do stop worrying about what if's or the how to's remeber the simple things i can do without crying Draw a picture that'

'll be satistfying maybe i can stop the crying and start living Maybe i should start focusing on the now and not the if or whens not the maybe's not that what about back then's just breathe and take a break Force my anxiety down for a moment or two Sit and take in the veiw Maybe i can understand Why all of this isn't going to plan Or maybe i can just accept it Maybe i can just forget it .. Or try to, Because trying is that matters for right now Nothing i need to do right now is screaming hay look out. So i'll just sit and be fine Look at the sunset not the time Look at my positives and be alright because i dont feeling fighting to night.

ANYWAY THATS MY MOTIVATION FOR MUSIC FOR THE MONTH :]