I hate when people worry about me. Even though I’m a person that tries to make people feel better When people try to help me I get sad and feel like I’m wasting that persons time. I feel like they should help anyone else except me. I’d rather help people than get help. I feel like that’s stupid but oh well. Uh. Well ok. But uh.. I’m just saying this and I feel like it doesn’t matter but I don’t like venting because it shows that I’m sad when I guess I’m recognized as the happy and upbeat person I guess?? And I get attention and people ask me if I’m ok. I hate getting asked that. Because it’s mostly when I’m not and I just lie. I lie to everyone. Especially my mom. Even when she says you can tell me anything and I understand that. I still don’t trust her because I’m scared. But instead I feel more safe telling random people online on this because they understand me. I feel like it’s bad trusting random people on the internet instead of my own mom and irl friends I just- Wh. What am I doing