uhh yuh so i decided that having a demi/male sona feels more comfy than just?? having a female one i think me being attracted to fem guys was like my body's way of sayimg "yo dude llook at you dum little female you wanna be feminine but you don't like being a girl 💀💀" so uhh i'm like somewhere inbetween?? i don't feel fully male all the time but i never feel fully female i act/dress masculine sometimes but sometimes i feel like that's just my way of trying to feel more male when i still f=want to be feminine just not a girl so yeah i guess i fluctuate between "look at me hya hya i'm cool baddie who wears leather jackets and combat boots" and "hyuk hyuk look at me i'm a sad little feminine guy stuck in a girl's body 😭" ig the way i draw myself is the only way i can express those feelings?? i'd like to be more male irl but yknow body and stuff 💀