i think i finally understand
6 comments
Karizma[OP]
05.02.2025 10:14
Linki dont. think ill ever change, i dint think im capable anymore. im just going to keep ****ing things up, every step i take is a mistake, every word that comes out of my mouth is hurtful, and when i figure this out, i run away.
Karizma[OP]
05.02.2025 10:15
Linkive been running away for so long that ive become accustomed to it, i dont even have to think twice. but i dont want that, i dont want to keep. doing that.
Karizma[OP]
05.02.2025 10:18
Linkim scared of everyone, scared of the simple facts of life. scared of the mere thought of someone getting mad at me, so i run. i ghost them, and this has happened multiple times. im scared that if i **** up, no one will ever see me differently, but if i dont change my reaction, thats going to become a reality
Karizma[OP]
05.02.2025 10:21
Linki want to get better, but i dont think i can. i dont think im capable anymore.
therapy doesnt even work. they dont understand nor care, and all they do is just agree to my twisted thoughts. i cant talk to my grandma cause she,ll just punish me for FEELING EMOTIONS, and my friends wouldnt understand
Karizma[OP]
05.02.2025 10:24
Linkbut regardless, im going to try. im going to try my hardest, if i could improve in the span of a year like 2 years ago, I think i might be able to do it again.
when I get in these types of situations I only remind myself it's only a teenager thing, and that helped me realize it's all in my head and I can js be a better person if I just work hard enough
maybe you can too
I don't think this is the best advice I can give but it's something I believe could help so maybe