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ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:40
LinkIk yall rly are upset with me. And thinki got over this way too fast. Said some really mean shit.
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:41
LinkFirst of all let me apologize sincerely for what i said about "Get out of my life"
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:41
LinkI already apologized but i guess ill make it public
TwilightSprinkle
11.04.2020 17:42
LinkHey that happens to everyone...I was being a shitface like 2 days ago to my best friend. By shitface I mean I was oversensitive and everything and there was so much drama...Then she said it was all her fault when it was mine. But we are BFFs again do dw, it will all be over soon! <3
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:43
LinkAnyways. Stress from this relationship has been building on me ever since late fall. My friends even told me that they had never ever seen me so stressed and that i didnt seem right. Ive been told by a lot lot of people to cut ties with her but i thought "You know what. Every relationship has its ups and downs. Its fine"
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:44
LinkThen it got worse and worse. Then in February she apparently had a crush on the person i dislike most at our school because of what he had done to me! So that felt like a punch in the gut
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:45
LinkThen i forgave her. Because i felt that maybe this was just one mistake and it will never happen again. But then a month later she tells me that her best friend Kaleb feels more like a boyfriend than her
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:46
LinkSo then im talking with one my friends about why she feels this way and apparently its because i dont giver enough attention or dont help her enough. And yet i sacrifice as much of my free time as possible to be with her. Because i actually wanted to care for her and be happy with her.
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:47
LinkThen i forgave her again. But somehow i was acting like a jerk about it by saying "I have a right to be mad" several times. She said i said other things but "didnt remember them"
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:47
LinkWanna know why i said :I have a right to be mad" so much? Because blame almost always gets shifted to me when we have a bad situation. So i was trying my best not to let that happen for like the 10th time
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:48
LinkShe never got over it even a week later. And i after a day where i tried to help her not be dperessed and not cut herself and try and tell her all these positive things. She starts to get personal with it like usual and starts to put me down
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:49
LinkActing like she never said any of that stuff about Kaleb and that i was the only bad part about that day
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:50
LinkI then contacted an online friend to try and get some comforting from all this stress weighing on me. So i told them how i felt and i sent them the texts that she sent me. And the first thing they said was "Dude this is extremely unhealthy. Like you need to cut ties man"
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:50
LinkSo i took thier opinion into account. I then asked 4 other people about it. Asking if i should break up with her. All of these people are people i care about and trust.
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:51
LinkAll of them said yes. That i should break up with her
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:52
LinkI thought about it all damn night. And wondered if i should really do it. Keep in my mind plenty of people have told me to do this before. But i ignored them and believed this could keep going. But i was reaching a breaking point. So i did it.
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:53
LinkAnd again. I did say some harsh things. And i do apologize for that. But she kept on pressing on me. Acting like the stress she caused me was never a big deal and kept on asking me to get back with her. Saying that i was being unreasonable and stupid. And that this wouldent help me.
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:54
LinkShe called me and texted me all day and night and wouldn't stop and i polity asked her several times to stop contacting me. And she would not stop so i had to get harsh about it.
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:55
LinkI almost had a damn panic attack because she wouldn't stop. And that isnt like me man. It really isnt.
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:56
LinkSo there is my side of the story. If you have questions i will anser them but after this post has been up for 2 days im leaving the platform. I dont need all of the people hating on me and telling me that im a *****. For a decision that i made to help me get my mental state back on track.
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:59
LinkAnd Natazsha. You always say how i make you feel. But have you ever acctually tooken a second to think about how you make me feel? When you tell me that im just an asshole. That i dont help people for shit. That maybe i should have tried harder in the relationship and you wouldent have felt that way about Kaleb when i worked my ass of for you. To try and make you happy and show that i care? I helped you when you needed it most. And i bought you things that i thought might acctually mean something to you. I spent time and money on you. And the best way you can repay me is by sending hate my way?
ColinAnim[OP]
11.04.2020 17:59
LinkNow im done. Questions will be answered as i said. Goodbye.
As for why i didnt want to remain friends. I would have and i felt that it would be a good decision to. But she changed my mind by spam calling me and texting me when i needed to heal and get away from her, And only did she think to ask if i need a break from contacting her when i was at the edge. So i opted out of staying as friends because she would hold on to what we once had.
Ok I'm sorry for what I said last night. I was being an overdramatic psychotic *****. I was just too goddamn upset.
I've tried to listen to how you felt, but I guess I just over thought it...
I'm really sorry man...
I shouldn't have said the shit I said, but when I go psycho, I lose my mind. I lose control. I say things I regret, I do things I regret.
I'm really sorry...
Also the things that you did for me and bought for me, mean a whole lot. It has a special place in my heart. I guess I didn't know how good I had it until you left me. So if you're wondering why I can't get over this quickly, it's because I'm feeling so many feelings at once. I'm really sorry for being clingy, and I know that clingy isn't going to cut it.
I wish you could forgive me, but I know you can't and wouldn't. I don't even forgive me.
I'm really sorry...
I still want to kms, because it's the only quick way to let it go.
I also want to do it, because I feel so goddamn horrible...
I never knew how horrible I was, until now...
