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MaxiTheNerd 
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23.12.2024
33 comments
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:43
Linkwhy do i always mess thigns up
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:44
Linkwhen things are good i mess thme up again becayse i cant control myemotions well
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:46
Linkall ican do is watcj youtube and eat i have ntohing elsee to block all these thoughts outwith
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:46
Linkor sleep i sleep a lot
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:48
Linkwhy is it suddenly difficult to forgive i always forgive people but why do i feel like i do not want to anymore is it because i dont deserve it either??? why must everything be so confusing
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:51
Linkido not want to be on this earth and i often feel like i am programmed like a robot but my wiring and code is faulty and i cant fulfill my purpose and i instead cause more problems rather than helping others which is what im supposed to do i am supposed to help others be happy ? i also sometimes feel like im dead and i am stuck inside a rotting corpse navigating this planet like i am meant to be gone already, i am rotting in this dead body and i am stuck inside of it
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:52
Linkbut it doesnt really matter how ifeel i will just keep punishing myself until i learn to be what everyone else wants of me
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:53
Linki do not matter anymore
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:54
Linki dont believe i ever really mattered but i do not know much anyways
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:55
Linki am failing i want to be forgotten
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:56
Linkit seems no matter how much i try things will never become better for me i bring others down and maybe i am meant to be alone
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:57
Linkthis urge to isolate myself maybe it is correct maybe it is what i am meant to do
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 20:59
Linkeverything that is good i come around to ruin it just happens over and over maybe i should not have hope if it is delusional
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 21:00
Linki am delusional to believe i will become better
MaxiTheNerd[OP]
23.12.2024 21:02
Linki am delusional for trying i am delusional for standing up for what i believe in i am delusional for giving chances undeserved i am delusional for having cared for anyone i am delusional to think i am cared for i am delusional to think i was loved i am delusional to think i was a good person
You do matter.
I can't sit here and tell you I understand everything you're going through. But I can say that I understand your self-loathing. You have a kind soul, helping others is what brings you happiness. Not being able to do that can leave you without a purpose. That was a big thing for me and I struggled a lot, I scrutinized myself and my own incompetence. The point is, you do matter. A lot. There are people that really care about you, and everybody ****s up. Don't beat yourself up over the mistakes or you'll never get past them.
i tried to forgive myself but i never should have tried i am losing the people who cared
You aren't delusional for trying. You're human. You have strong emotions. You want to be happy, you want to have friends and people who care. It's not right to give up. You'll spiral deeper and deeper into a depression that seems almost impossible to escape. Humans aren't meant to be alone, and that loneliness will take a big toll on your mind. There's always someone that cares and you aren't delusional for having that hope.
I hate seeing someone go through what I did. You're not worthless, you're not delusional, and you do matter. People can be cruel or stupid and disregard your emotions, but you should never let that control how you picture yourself. You are your own worst enemy, and if you batter yourself for every mistake you will tear yourself apart trying to be perfect.
You already are. And no matter where you are in life, there is always room to grow. In life, there's always someone who's going to be disappointed by you, no matter how hard to try and please them. If you give it your best shot and it still isn't enough, that isn't your fault. Some people simply can't be pleased.
You're a good person, always believe that and it will ring true.
it seems i disappoint many people when i think i am a good person
