When’s the last time you’ve had fun

I love talking to people but depressive episodes can still override that and have me isolate and have it hard to talk to people It feels like it’s draining when your already out of energy

Even when I have a really fun few days it’s like something drags you back down and makes you feel like everything is repetitive and dull again Sleeping it off does help sometimes

Does it feel like you have brain fog? Can think straight or forget how to act

I don’t know what cheers you up but has anything ever distracted you or kept you occupied from dwelling deeper into these feelings For me talking with people keeps my mind occupied is there something you can focus on Maybe drawing? Or daydreaming-

What did you do last week that was fun? I went out thrifting a few days ago

Don’t worry about it I’m glad that you did get to sleep rather then staying up stressed out all night I don’t know much about dissociation I never really suffered with it before but my sister does deal with it things that can help ground your mind back into the present can help or you can try to understand and keep track of what happens in these states of being Like drawing art during these states can help you understand better what you feel when you go through them and help with your memory by reminding yourself how you were feeling or thinking while drawing that piece- you could also write down how you feel during these moments if you can

A lot of advice to help with these things is to take deep breaths or count on your fingers and what have you but these things don’t always work and sometimes dissociation gets so bad you don’t remember to do these things or you feel like you just can’t do them All I can gather rn is that you can write and draw when you feel a bad way which is good that’s a great way to cope as it is

It’s true that sometimes writing and drawing won’t help I’m sure it hasn’t before but I’m assuming it works some of the time? Which is still good I would much rather you get treated by a doctor this sounds serious- but in the meantime anything that helps helps Sometimes I like to look at the time and remind myself when things are repetitive that it is a new day, sometimes I’ll try something new just to snap myself out of that thinking It doesn’t have to be anything crazy sometimes I try making new friends or playing a new game or trying out a new hobby

If you have paper you can try doing origami!

I know I might sound impersonal, but I promise I understand some of the things you are going through i hated school when I was younger because it felt like the loop you are talking about and it got so bad I got hospitalized That loop or things going on and on is a serious feeling and for me I have to break it before it gets worse

i would plan hang outs with my friend back when I lived close to her to not only did I have something to look forward to it would break that loop I was feeling Having something to look forward to is important as well, I try to have something every week that is fun for me to look forward to sometimes it’s hanging out with someone or trying something new or watching a new show etc etc

I just want you to feel better vermin if you still go by that

you deserve to be happy and feel loved and I’m sorry that it doesn’t feel like anyone does right now