Okay back to my project that I'm trying to do. Also the only person that's related to me that I trust with my gender identity is my grandfather because on Christmas, when we do out traditional Christmas lunch stuff. I asked about gender identity and he said: "identify with whatever, you'll still be my grandchild." I'm just not 100% sure with my mother yet, but I'm 90% sure she'll be fine with whatever gender identity I am.