Vent.
22 comments
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:48
LinkI feel like I need to stop doing this I need to stop venting saying I’m sad I’m trying to fix my personality who I am talked about as online and in reality but it’s not working I can’t fix it I used to be that one happy kid it’s gone now I randomly get sad due to a lot of stuff it doesn’t make sense I try so hard yet nothing works I act good yet people joke about me and I laugh along pretend it doesn’t hurt but sticks and stones will break my bones and words will break my heart. I feel weird it’s so shocking I haven’t cried in a month I’m stopping myself from it I’m punching walls till my knuckles bleed just to get anger out nothing working not at all I tell people I’m all right I with I hadn’t told anyone I was sad so I could continue being normal, happy. I realize oh if I’m perfect and do what they want life will be easy I did it so I know that! I say over and over again as I re peatedly make human mistakes but get yelled at severely for them help just help I know my life Aisnt even that bad I DONT KNOW WHY
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:49
LinkI DONT FEEL SAD I DONT GET IT OTHER POEPLE HAVE HORRID LIFESITS NOT FAIR I MADE MY KISMTE HELPING OTHERS NKT MYSELF YET IT DOESNT SEEM I CAN EVEN HELP THEM I WANT IT TO STOP I WANT TO DIE BURNING IN HELL WOULD BE BETTER
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:50
LinkYET I CANT I CANT I JUST CANT I DONT KNOW WHY IN THE END ILL GO TO HELL FOR WHAT GENDER I LIKE THERES NO POINT I DONT CARE ANYMORE
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:50
Linkemotional numbness. And what hides behind it.
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:50
LinkI’m done.
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:50
LinkI barely talk in school when I used to be the funny kid.
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:52
LinkThere’s an empty hole where I used to be it feels like I’m losing friends. Since I’m at this age poeple tend to say it’s just growing up. I’m sorry I don’t think feeling like you shouldn’t take care of yourself and that there’s no point in living so you live TO LOOK DOWN ON YOURSLEF
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Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:53
LinkTHE ONES PEOPLE LUCKY PEOLE SAY LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU WOULD DIS OWN AND DISGUDST ME IF THEY FOUND OUT WHO I AM AND I QUOTE ITS NOT PRIDE ITS A CURSE AND I QOUTE ITS DISGUSTING ITS NOT IM NOT, at least I think.
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:53
LinkGo live life cherish it don’t let a sad 10 year old stop you. My life is perfect compared to those poor kids yet I feel sad I feel rotten selfish I am I truly am
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:54
LinkThey say no suicide is for losers YEAH IVE ALREADY LOST THE BATTLE BUT IVE ALSO LOST THE WAR
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:54
LinkMY FIGHT WITH SUICIDE IS OVER I MIGHT AS WELL RUN AWAY
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:54
LinkBut I cant. I just can’t.
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:55
LinkI keep saying tommorow will be better life will get better it has for those sad people!
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:56
Link3 ****ing years have past THREE YEARS it’s not I’m done. I’m not killing myself it’s just I don’t care screw being a human poeple say I sound like a roblox act like one barely say hi or smile.
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:56
LinkI’m much different in real life 🙃
Sundra[OP]
01.04.2021 02:56
LinkGood night.
It's okay to vent there are people who will help you one day.
If you want to be your old self we can't change back you wish this and hope but nothing is going to happen unless you do it. It's still good to hope just do something to accomplish that hope if that makes sense. If you laugh along and pretend it doesn't hurt you it's only gonna get worse. People do have horrible lives if you don't want them to be hurt be there for them, help them even tho it seems hopeless.
It’s ok to vent, I just now know you but just tell this to the person you trust the most and be brave and say that’s not funny that hurts to those who laugh and stuff, I can’t really help that much but I hope you can get help