⚠️ MAJOR S/H TRIGGER WARNING ! !!! !⚠️ i havent really. been clean for a long time and things are really hard and bad!!!right now. so i :( yknow and! it wasnt having the same effect really because ive been doing it so frequently and so i had to go even deeper and i thought i was. going to faint and i started freaking out because someone came home and it was gushing and di cant. i cannot do this anymore i was so scared she was gonna@!!!see me!!!! i got it on my floor and it just kept on coming and coming my hand turned blue and ggjdi

i jsut. dont trust myself. im really ggona get myself hurt

and maybe that??is what i want???? i cant even really tell

everything is just too much for me!!!! im almost out of the house but!! im so so weak!!! i dont know if i can maake it!!

i feel. ery silly talkig about this here

im cold

talking about it made me. feel like i had to do it again but i think theyll be home soon. and im too tired no energy. too tired just wantt to sleep

i cannot stand being so touched starved it is so horrible. i am a very,,physically affectionate person,,,, am just.. want a cuddle spare cuddle please

i would give both my legs to fall asleep with. someone holding me id literally. please maybe i would actually get,,good sleep

i am Annoying

sometimes when people ask me how im feeling i want to just. breakdown. i really want to tell them. bbut last time i did i was hospitalized and i know i need to be right now with my poor mental state but i dont want to miss school

hvhvhvvb,,,thank you. it really is. really hard but im going to start trying harder. thank yyou so much hbhvb :(,,, you take care as well ok? you are so sweet and deserve to be safe