Ik its like 5 in the morning

Okay so like my ramble for today is like missing fathers NO CORRELATION

I was listening to this YouTube video about this 20 yearold daughter *****ing about her dad not being there in her life after he gave her several million dollars in childcare and hung out with her And it reminded me on how my mom let my dad just NOT be in my life she was like You don’t have to sign the birth certificate When first of all.. ERM WHO LET HER MAKE THAT DECISION IDC ABOUT BEING NICE

That should have been my decision and ik like well I couldn’t have just signed as a infant he has to be my father but

But literally I have no idea about the other half of my family, I saw a picture of him with his other two daughters and It pissed me off lowkey Those are my sisters technically and I just never got to meet them He ended up having children anyways and I’m just left out I wonder if he was in my life if I would have my perpetual fear of men now Lider was talking about his dad and it made me happy but it made me reflect on my situation

It’s not just that I also have a brother too I don’t know about This sounds like a fictional made up story but I’m like serious And hearing about this woman take advantage of the father that genuinely loved her and spoiled her made me mad I’m lucky I have my mom my other friend didn’t get to live with her mother But I think I deserve to see my dad, get to know the other half of my family

Also I was learning about Japanese fashion while drawing this and one type was derived from mental health and the fashion was a way to promote and be accessible towards people Because in Asia mental health isn’t taken as seriously and this woman was talking about sh cuts and scars and how people focus on it more then the catalyst to why that person hurts themselves And that regardless on if it’s a bad or good mechanism it’s a way someone copes with something horrible And it seems it’s the first thing people always notice and point out first So because Vermin uses self harm in there art a lot I made them eyes did I cook

I like vermins art sorry bias

Don’t learn from me I’m a bad influence

ITS 6 DAYS TILL MY 18TH

Bro I just got a picture of my brother from my sister today but she told me not to tell my mom I never seen my brother before this he’s like one or two years older then me

He’s the dude on the right https://paste.pics/8f2bc5b8450dcad9a2f46b20cc797aaa why does he look blazed

Apparently he’s gay and his parents are homophobic

New Camren lore dropped why is my life so interesting

There art is like disturbing in the best way possible it’s uncomfortable and messy sometimes so I had fun w adding guts and stuff in the background

THANKS XENO

that’s actually really smart we are literally geniuses

MISTY GET READY FOR SCHOOL

Vermin as a person and there character left me with a lot to use maybe I’ll make more Fanart as prizes or just for fun before I go

They had the :3 face before but I didn’t think it fit

XEROX?

No way

Do you like my glow up

How are you doing ??

A lot of things happened but I’m turning 18 soon and I’ll be leaving flipanim after I might get a rabbit and a nose piercing for my birthday and I have medication I take for my personal issues I’m SO glad you found better people you sound a lot happier in text LOL Ppl have been bumping me up on fa so I’m kind of popular but I’m not letting it get to my head I’m trying to get my ged and work for child care or animal care

I have a septum but my friend wants to get a nostril piercing like the one on the side of your nose and I thought it was be cute if we both got the same peircing I’m gonna totally post my birthday stuff on my Instagram @TokanRo if you want to see it

OMG DON’T GET MY STARTED I WANT THOSE TOO BUT I ALSO DONT URG

EXACTLY I WANTED A TONGUE PEIRCING BUT THEN HEARD ABOUT THE SIDE EFFECTS AND NOW I’M LIKE INBETWEEN

I love eating if something goes wrong with my tongue I’m gonna LOSEIT

I wanted to give her a disturbing expression but I kind of lost it and took over trying to make it cute it happens everytime I try to make something disturbing 😭