As every day goes by I find myself getting more and more angry and violet And I sometimes have thoughts or dreams that I'm living with someone, I would assume a significant other, because of the words being used by me and them "baby", "hon" "sweetie" ect ect. And that we get into an argument. And i get.. well.. a bit physical... I'm scared of what would I be capable of doing. I dont want to hurt the ones I love the most. I dobt wanna be an abusive s/o. I dont want to turn into my father on that one night.. I'm scared if myself. Of my mentality, my strength, and.. just everything.. it scars me at night to think about arguments that might happen, abusing and being abused. Maybe I was never made to be in a relationship hhaha..