aint no way im sad cos i miss a guy who used to call me a manic pick me dream boy smiths fan in a well meaning way i just miss feeling genuinely cared about and i miss before i have to go to work in a half hour and i miss before i was in back in this stupid ****ing city **** this place!!!!!! i wish my mum loved me i probably wouldnt be ****ing insane i wish i could be enough for someone i dont hate myself i have such a high ego i just hate everyone and sometimes myself oospsisessssl i dont know why i do that its so weird its one or the either soemtimes i hate myself becayse im aware in the problem i just dont care and im too lazy and stupid to ****ing change!!!!! “why does everyone u used to be friends with or date hate you?” cos im a walking red flag i literally am a bad person i am the problem i dont even let people get close to me anymore cos im like that i hate myself so ****ing much i wish i could change i really do im really trying im putting all my energy into this but im just like my mum nothing i do