but everything around me i-is crumbling everyone is leaving me everyone i love is dying people are cutting should i to?

i am not healthy i never have been and what is the point we are all gonna be rotting in a grave one day

I WILL DIE SOMEDAY WHY NOT MAKE IT TOMORROW OR TODAY

i-i'm can't keep it i can't keep controling my anger MY STUPID ASS FAMILY THINKS JUST CAUSE I'M SMALL THAT I CAN'T AND WON'T SNAP BUT i can~~~~ it hurts me and they don't care

i'm crying i'm dying inside and a-a-an-and my family doesn't care and i'm sorry i-i'm s-so so so sorry i i am s-so so so sorry

i'm sorry so sorry

i know it won't help me but it will help y'all i won't be here to waste time to waste oxygen to waste space i'm gonna cut i'm gonna try

I'M A ****ING WASTE ha ha haha it's funny right y'all care that's hillarious

y'all care and love me and and y'all think i'm this awesome person but i'm not i'm a horrible person

i am y'all only see fa me not real me

alright here is my anger MY ****ING DUMB ASS FAMILY IGNORES ME MY DAD WAS GONE HALF MY LIFE AND HE THINKS THAT HE CAN ****ING BOSS ME AROUND I BARELY KNOW HIM HE LEFT WHEN I WAS 3 OR 4 I DON'T REMEMBER HIM AND MY MOM IS NEVER HERE AND WHEN SHE IS SHE BLOCKS US OUT AND GET'S MAD WEN WE ASK HER SOMETHING MY SISTER IS A ***** SHE KEPS PICKING ON ME BEING GAY AND SHIT SHE GETS MAD WHEN I TALK TO MY SELF BUT SHE NEVER TALKS TO ME AND MY BRO ABUSES US WHEN OUR PARENTS ARE GONE AND BLAMES EVERYTHING ON ME JUST ****ING ME!

that ain't half of my anger

and then i found this site and everyone is so nice i need y'all to stop being nice to me i'm sorry for y'all y'all care about me and-and when y'all change y'all change for the better but when I change i change for the worst ain't that something it hurts me so bad and i hate it series of dreams my anxiety and depression get the best of me a-and

a-and i can't stay alive any more i'm gonna wait for my girl friend to wake up and tell her goodbye

i'll see if she can help me

i'm sorry if i seem like i'm trying to get attention hun i-i-i' sorry

i-it's that i-i'ts cause i it's i i don't know anymore