Theres no real "reason" I've felt this way besides trauma and sadness but I'm tired of having to do this "oh yeah!Im perfectly fine" "thanks for asking but im okay" or having to keep acting like I agree when I do get help I dont understand anybody I dont understand myself I dont understand my own issues I dont understand anybody's issues

theres no real reason for me to do anything anymore personally i'd love to just spend a year gone see if anybody notices maybe somebody would fake missing me for the first day or two after a week would they forget me? a month? a year?

I dont want to remain a burden if you feel like I am please tell me I can change for you I dont mind I dont mind you leaving me I just want you to be happy whether its' with or without me I love you,never forget that you've never mattered more to me I care for you more than you'll ever know I feel so like a burden or a parasite around you and I want to know if you're happy. because thats all I want.