I have detention today. I disn't finish a science assignment before it was due and now I have to stay after. My dad is going to be FUMING. I cried during science class and one of the higher-up ppl comforted me, and said she'd talk to my dad, but- I don't think it's going to do anything. He's still going to be mad. he's going to yell he's going to swear he's going to ground me he's GOING TO make me smash one or more of my devices. no matter how they spin it, he's going to get mad. i'm practically dead.

she said she's a parent, and would be mad too. but she doesn't know how mad my dad will get. hopefully she mentions I bawled my eyes out because I was so scared of what he'd do. she won't. but... if he knew I cried, maybe he'd be a little gentler...? ... who am I kidding.

I don't even know why I cried. it's fine. I was just being... dramatic? idk if that's the word, but I spiraled when I really didn't need to. though... I guess my spiral into an emotional breakdown in the back of class saved me from getting grounded, since that's why the high-up lady called my mom (couldn't reach my dad, not a contact) and said I was "willing to stay after" so.. eh.

n-no- it's fine. the latter part was just me being emotional. while I AM scared of what he'll do, my "i'm practically dead" and "he will" statements were just- thinking emotionally and worst-case scenario. it's fine now-

I’m doing a lot better. Dad didn’t yell. Was just- stern. Told me he’d smash my devices if I was caught using them for non-school stuff before finishing my work Luckily, i didn’t try to be slick and got my work done quick. So… nothing was lost. Except maybe some dignity. I broke down from the fear in the classroom under a “Surf’s Up” poster. Nobody payed attention, but there’s no way they didn’t hear me-

I think I also slightly age-regressed? O.o; In the midst of said breakdown, my thoughts were “I want (my) momma” No, not my actual mom. A scratch user who adopted me. I also wanted my “brother”, Nate. An online friend who I’m so close to we call each-other siblings. My potential regression ended when I calmed down, but still-