so, uh, yea. I haven't been in the best position lately. If I were to type everything that has been going on in my life , I would 1.cry 2.remember how crappy my life is 3.smack myself, I'm going away to Cape Verde(country in Africa) for 2 months and I am really glad. after this week ends I have 1 more week of school, because of the flight( Note: it's a long flight and you have to make stops to get there.)This year was ****ing crappy if had the option to I would have skipped this year, I'm honestly glad I'm leaving school early because 80% of the kids there are ****ing homophobic, racist, judgemental, manipulative,dirty-ass *****es I hope they all die in a fire or slowly get killed. but sadly I don't hate them.just strongly dislike them.the rest are ****ing angels I really hope they have an awesome life.so um.a few nights ago I was reading a book before I went to bed (because, why not?)and I had a knife in my room I knew I put it there for something I was working on but I never put it back.I ignored it but I