and i dont rly have much energy to do anything, im failing most of my classes and after school im too tired to do homework idk what to do anymore

my room is so messy and i dont have the energy to clean it, my mom tells me to clean it and i tell her i will but i never do idk why i keep things that i rarely use, like if i loose it i wont notice but getting rid of it is hard?

i feel like im just existing im not rly doing anything, im so tired and whenever i finally do something like hangout w/ my cousins or something i feel happy, but once i leave life feels sad and boring again

i didn’t expect to write so much honestly i wanna write more but recently i feel shitty vent on here, i feel like no one wants to see that i dont want ppl to pity me or anything i just want, idk rly i think i want help? or somone to tell me why im like this? or maybe to show something?? i rly dont know idk anything anymore j cf ejjskxvxkan omg i need to shut up

eewehwkksma bye