Ok so like... Back then, I realized that I was more than weird, I was the most obsessive and gross little b!tch towards my flipanim and discord friends specifically. I used to be so obsessive with this one friend I had on here all because we had the same interests from a relatively small and dead fandom, and then they'd (rightfully) block me for being weird, obsessive and annoying. I can understand that, I was kinda creepy. And also addressing the self ships from the past. When I was 11-12, I used to ship MYSELF with fnf characters like Whitty, Agoti, and Garcello, drawing myself and those characters blushing at eachother in a ROMANTIC way. I was a minor and I wasn't aware that it was strange for a child to be yumeshipping with actual f^cking adult characters, which is equivalent to actual darkshipping/proshipping. Yes, I love those characters still, but not in the way I used to. My strange behavior and actions caused many people to block me, including friends and people I considered as my "friends"