I got a job and im actually being paid it’s so cool I might be moving out to a farm w my family fairly soon since one of my aunties is getting into court to sue a buncha landlords

my aunt is paying me to make her a website for her business until then, Im being payed around 20 a week methinks

i have been feeligg rly sick lately,,, like maybe a stomach bug or a cold or smthh I just feel like I’m constantly going to throw up

might b because I haven’t been eating. there’s no real reason as to why tho, I’m just not interested in eating anymore, it makes me feel yucky gross

the most I’ll eat is at school when they force me to during lunch, and when my stomach begins to violently convulse, but wutevuh

on a completely unrelated note, I feel so oddly hopeless ? like nothing I do seems to change anything even if I knows that’s not true I’m happy, I am very happy with everything, everything is wonderful, but there’s this nagging deep in my heart that something is wrong and I don’t know what it is

rarely I’ll feel like I KNOW and I’ll go back and read things or rethink things, only to forget about it later. it’s not like those things don’t matter to me, it’s just that my brain seems to subside them without my knowledge

certain things remind me of other things that I can’t even place my finger on names, places, foods, hell even words

i feel like my thoughts are read, and as soon as they are, they vanish until the next century when i remember again

how can I miss something I don't even know? why do I feel so sad whenever I think of literally anything??? why can't I eat anything anymore????? I don't understand

I'm being stupid sorry I hope everyone has a good day :) back to my studies

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