I feel so broken lately. Just incredibly lonely and broken. I miss having friends, and I miss when my partner was my friend and not just someone who resents and mistreats me, even at my most vulnerable. I’m so, so tired. It’s been so long since I’ve felt okay, but I’m scared that if I remember what that’s like the lows would be that much more unbearable. I’ve been dissociating for at least half my life at this point, though. I don’t think I’ve ever really been okay, but at some point I did know warmth. It hurts. The grief is unbearable, and it has nowhere to go. I hope I feel at least a little better in the morning