I kinda wish that I could do something and it impressed everyone. Specifically my dad. Nothing I do seems good enough for him, when I paint a scene from Alice in Wonderland? "They eyes are scary" when I really try my best on my homework and schoolwork, but still end up failing a lot of it, it isnt good enough. He says to try my hardest and I am, but my hardest isnt good enough

I want to find people IRL like me. People with the same interests, and who will accept me as who I really feel like I am. I have you guys online, but I have no one to talk to in real life. Evie would just think I'm stupid, Kay and Ky wouldn't know or care what I'm talking about, I cant talk to Che right now, J is... has been gone for 2 years, Abigail wouldn't give a shit, and Lily would just. She'd laugh as well, probably

Damn, bet the school is gonna a put me in a class with nobody I know again. Its gonna happen and this time I refuse to make any more friends. They'll just be taken away again.