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Karizma[OP]
29.03.2024 02:56
Linkever since my mom died everything has gotten so much worse
every time something good happens I immediately feel like something horrible is gonna be told to me, just like when she died.
I was having such a good day that day! We had went to the dog park and played with the adoptable puppies but as soon as we got home, and I decided to take a nap, I wake up to my family basically busting down my door and telling me my mom died
Karizma[OP]
29.03.2024 02:57
LinkI haven't been the same, well. No shit ofc I'm not going to feel the same. But I haven't been taking care of myself, I have starved myself for days, weeks, even months on end and when I'd tell my friends they'd just say I was "fasting"
Karizma[OP]
29.03.2024 02:58
LinkI wouldn't be able to move for days on end, I wouldn't even be able to feel anything even if I desperately wanted to
and tbh, all of that's coming back now, especially with the fact I had to surrender Mister
Karizma[OP]
29.03.2024 03:00
LinkI keep ghosting my friends on accident, leaving them on read and never checking to see if they even messaged me, or I either accidentally say something hurtful without even knowing it
i've been shoving all of the horrible shit I've been feeling down my throat so I don't just end up venting to my friends all the time
I dont want them to think I only love them because they 'listen to me' like my ex friend
Karizma[OP]
29.03.2024 03:02
Linkoff topic
Im shaking. my entire body is shaking I hate this. I wish I could just get high so I don't have to feel it anymore, I'm so close to breaking my streak of not trying to kill myself / cutting
Karizma[OP]
29.03.2024 03:03
LinkWe don't have any more edibles or anything that could get me high, I'm genuinely so ****ing close to like. overdosing or something?? idk
Karizma[OP]
29.03.2024 03:06
Linkdude why is anger a thing, its so stupid
Chungus-boi
29.03.2024 03:11
LinkPlease take care of your self. I never met you but I know it's not your time yet you have more to live for.
Chungus-boi
29.03.2024 03:13
LinkAnd sorry bro I might be overstepping my bounds but I don't want you to do something you may regret
Chungus-boi
29.03.2024 03:16
LinkI know how it feels when someone you love deeply is gone forever it damn neer kills your soul and that pain never leaves you.
Chungus-boi
29.03.2024 03:19
LinkAnd so please live I know you can make it through this bro you are strong
Karizma[OP]
29.03.2024 03:26
LinkThanks
why the **** are you only 13 and going through hell. what the ****.
I know hhow loss feels. it ****ing hurts
I tried taking drugs and the negative emotions overwhelmed me, ULTIMATELLY making the drugs side effects worse, I actually almost passed out from how hard and fast my heart was beating </3
overdose isn't a good thing, loss hurts. and I get it. I know it ain't your time to die bro you seem like an awesome person. don't let it affect you, honestly.
I hope you get better. </3 really sorry about the shit you're going through, you shouldn't even have to go through that, nobody should.
This really is heartbreaking. I’m afraid there’s not much I can say or do, but I am sorry for your loss, and I hope you remember that it’s okay to grieve the loss of a family member.