I don't wanna be happy Im never going to be good enough not even for my self I don't want to take my anti depressants I feel empty I wanna go home I don't have a ****ing home I don't know who I am I don't kow what home feels like I feel abandoned disgusted in myself and other's constantly ****ing fighting for other's approval, affection, friendship, thoughts but I don't want to I want to be my self but I don't know who that is I wear so many masks that the real me dissolved I don't want to keep fighting I want to give in I want to cave I want scream and cry I don't want to live but hey I have to why because I don't ****ing know