watch all my friends leave me by the time i go home just watch

grgrhdl after this i have lunch. ido not want to eat i hate eating food makes me nauseous i might throw up at th smell of food i hope everyone here explodes i hateschool

it's only the first day and im already more suicidal than i was last year its too loud its overwhelming and i dont have my phone to use my earbuds with to drown out the noise kms!!!!! i cant even do anything im literally stuck here. i might go to the social worker's office because it's genuinely so loud why did i take band literally every year ive taken it ive complained about the noise YET I KEEP TAKING IT!!!!!

i dont have my best friend i dont have my fp i dont have my cat and im stuck living at my grandmas house all because i keep making myself throw up LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!! grandma wants to "change my life" SJUT UP you're making me worse everyone makes me worse i ****ing hatemy friends they're gonna leabe me

"about you slides" i dont even knmow my name half of the times and then i just had a random ass nosebleed but then i got called to the social worker todayis too eventful im never coming back everyone here makes me wanna slit my wrists but last time i did that i got in trouble and stuff so i hateeveyrone my head huuruts i love complaining to this site idk man

the ****ing counselling thing i havbe to go back 2 times. one theyre gonna see if i need meds (i DONT) and the other to speak to the cool girl who let me talk abotu ghost and pals and cannibalism and teeth ilvoe her shes the only good one there everyone else can die ihate them all and they all hateme too

i hope i pass out im gonna dehydrate myself and starve myself until i do i need that attention itll show me who cares and who doesnt.ihate everyone tho so idc who cares and who doesn't but i love attention i dont get enough at home even my momma doesn't want me and neither does my dad and my grandma is mad at me for being ME im sorry that i mess with my hair when im stressed?????imsorry that im PARANOID???? she makes me wanna get worse

wait but like i hate my friends stop being my friend they all secretly hate me i might block them just thinking about them is making me nauseous i hate them

wait but like i hate my friends stop being my friend they all secretly hate me i might block them just thinking about them is making me nauseous i hate them

i dont know why but i brought my blade to school its not like i ever go to the bathroom to use it i hate school bathrooms theyre so ****ing gross and people are weird as **** hiding in there. why hide in somewhere so gross???? and bro the school is trying to make sure i dont escape they said if i leave they'll call grandma DON'T KEEO ME HOSTAGE HERE??? AND WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE IM JST GONNA WALK OUT HELLO??

i have to go back to the social worker after algebra II because this shitty school gave me a 3rd P.E i do NOT want that and so im gonna get it changed. idk what to tho because like???? probably health II tbh. i didn't do it yet. everyone here is ****ing retarded i hatethem all except for the nice person who spoke up for me because i physically CANT and the guy whowas nice enough to give me his chair. i hatebeing treated with basic human decency stop leave me alone just tell me how stupid and hideous i am tell me how im patheticbecause i cant even speak just leave me ALONE but it was nice im grateful just leabe me alone next time letme suffer

this site is genuinely so horrible for my mental health in fact all social media is. social media makes me wanna kms!!! it makes me wanna cut deeper!!!!!! but it's addictive i can't get off i love talking to people online i love getting online attention i love getting online validation i love that people don't know the real me because all they'll ever see is the person i pretend to be online i love being online and i hateit because every moment im not getting attention im literally spiraling i hate myself!!! why did my attempts fail i could've been DEAD well **** you too death clearly even death doesnt want me. or im immortal. actually i probably am immortal, **** everyone who even needs people????

my friends should be gratefu; they eben know me im ****ing awesome??/?? i literally CANNOT ****ing die what'scooler than that