so... It is time people learn the truth about me... Guys, I think I am becoming depressed because in 2015 or 2016 my dog Bella died. I was five or six at the time and me, little me, looked out the window to see why Bella was barking in a muffled bark and I saw her chocking on a plastic bag. I was scared to death so I went to tell mom and she cried because she was the one who let her out. my dad was in the shower and felt something wasn't right so then he saw my dog suffocating and then it was too late... my dad was not able to save her in time... that terrifying memory is stuck in my head and I can't get it out that is why I make some abusive, sad, or depressing content... hope you have a nice day ima go watch youtube.