my eyes dry a lil who wanna lick them

lick my eyeballsssss lick my eyeballsssss

im so ****in hungry rn but there’s nothing in the fridge nd when i say rhat i mean literally nothing

i hadda throw literally everything in the firdge out today cuz my mama was scared that th food got salmonella poisoning bc of spoiled raw chicken that was in the fridge

it stunk like hell i hadda put a mask on on sum covid shit

nah bc how tf did i survive havin a mask on for 8+ hours back in 2021 nd early 2022

i could not breathe those lil 5 mins i had the mask on earlier today

would it be crazy to say that due to the pandemic nd bein indoors no outdoors no sunlight no vitamin d no hangouts no nun for months on end may have made me appreciate the ability to go outside nd be out in the sun nd hangout wit ppl

like prior to the pandemic i didnt rlly like leavin my house i loved bein in my room chillin but now i lowkey hate bein at home nd much rather be out nd abt doin anything else

not even just prior to the pandemic tho. even during it i liked bein indoors but once it ended i started growin a hatred for bein at home

this may also be bc before/during the pandemic i did have bad social anxiety tho so bein at school was so draining since i would be so worried abt what other ppl thought of me nd try to make myself likeable to other ppl nd shit

basically i wasnt bein myself at the time but like after the pandemic ended its like i was knocked back into my senses, wtf was i tryna make myself likeable for if they dont like me then they dont like me

theyre just not my crowd, thats it

then around that time i liked bein at school cuz at school i could be myself wit my friends but when ik at home i gotta hide certain parts of myself that ive been hidin for my whole life basically

its crazy

lowkey wanna lick my led lights they look so good