so tired
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beevii[OP]
17.06.2025 21:28
Linkdid not realize that hiding the paper layer does not mean it will be hidden when you upload
anyway life kinda sucks right now i have little motivation to do anything and im just so tired of it all
i miss progging its been like two weeks now since the last time i did m6s or m5s and im scared we’re (me and my dad) going to be left behind when everyone else in our group gets a clear and we still haven’t.
was with a lot of family this past weekend and im increasingly feeling more and more dysphoric. i hate it, a lot. sigh. and unbeatable tournament and i can’t play the charts more than 5 times in a row without getting too mad at myself and being able to continue. got scores that were okay enough to post but even though my mic was muted my mom’s voice picked up so i can’t use those clips. ugh.
beevii[OP]
17.06.2025 21:39
Linkbeen wanting to post again on here for a while but ive been drawing a lot more on procreate and the notes app.. ive also been crafting a lot more. made another pair of ears that look closer to kioku’s actual ears so thats nice. have to get them on a headband still. but they look great.
need more crafts to get distracted & lost in but the craft room is unavailable rn ugh. was actually working on that partially, want to make custom patches for a thrifted jacket and make it cruiserweight themed. so i was working on ideas for that
Aw dang, I'm sorry, man. Just remember to take time for yourself and to make changes if necessary
Yeah I learned that about the paper layer the hard way too
thank you, i wish i could just do stuff that makes me happy but i don’t even know what that is anymore. im pushing myself too hard with this unbeatable tournament and comparing myself to others too much (wanting to get top 5 for the merch even though i know thats above my skill level) that its made playing actually unfun. the tally ho chart is like my nemesis and i genuinely think its harder than cleveland/other charts around its level just because of all of the jacks, it hurts my hands bro
ive also been worrying too much about my future and it sucks :’)
Well, I can't say much to sympathize with you but I hope you can figure something out, man. Its no good being blue and it's definitely no fun pushing yourself too hard
thank you 🫶ive been a lot better and tbh i kinda forgot to check back here after posting that last reply lol. just chillin playin trails in the sky fc & atlyss, i started making patches for a cruiserweight themed jacket, and i also cleared my first savage raid m5s :D oh yeah i also started playing clair obscur expedition 33 but immediately after i started trails and trails kind of took my attention haha. i do wanna play e33 more its just.. i am distracted by trails
dude one of my friends from the unbeatable discord server friended me on steam and sent me the second trails in the sky game out of nowhere last night. hes awesome we were playing together w some other people last night since the guy whos been bothering me n my dad to do reclears overslept and almost got to his work late yesterday >.>
