Other than wanting to vanish and wanting someone to hug me and feel my affection other than people online or my family who don't bother with what i'm saying. I hate Health class so much but we have it this quarter and so im a bit depressed this week. It's gonna be Halloween but i still feel so sad. I still haven't got over a long gone relationship from so long ago it feels like so i be very rude to that person because i mean, hormones. Once again, i make so many excuses so get used to it. I say i want people to notice me but still want to vanish after i rip off a band-aid from the body of band-aids on my knees and arms. That band-aid my secrecy on how much i fell for that girl. I know she might not like me back but i still want to try. I told her afterschool and pulled her aside and told her "i'll do this so i can stop getting nervous" and then i told her "that crush was you" then ran like i was gonna get my legs sawed off to my car and i told the driver to drive off quickly and i left i THOUGHT satisfied.