Like i know the basics. Im a boy , thats kinda it. Idk how to potray myself, or how to present myself to others, or how to be a person. Im just here

I never felt like a person i genuinely dontbthink thatll ever be a thing for me Shit just spiraled downwards as i started losing friends and branching/cutting people off. Which. My fault fr i miss them a lot Ive gotten to a point where id rather ****ing brutally kill myself than feel like this

Im almost a highschooler and i lowk just feel like ive wasted so much space. There could be like an unborn prodigy that couldve fixed and saved the world but i was born instead of them and wasted their space and now theyre dead

All im really good at is ****ing shit up and then blaming it on anything but my own ignorance. I had so many chances to fix things but my pussy ass just. Sat and stared. Like a loser. Im a loser.