There;s some things I don't tell people, things that I don't even think my closest friends or family know about me. So, I decided to tell a few of them because what's the point? Huh? I mean, I'm going to get attacked anyway because I have a fringe so why not make myself seem even more edgy by revealing the flaws about me which I have bottled up inside for years. Let's start off with I don't think I should have ever been here. I'm not saying that I'm a mistake, no no no my parents planned me and everything, they wanted two kids and got them. It's that, I've tried to die so many times even in my childhood to the point where I don';t think I can forgive the God I was raised to know and love completely for letting me live. I mean, people say whatever God is above knows the future, the present, past, everything, so why did he let me live knowing my future would be nothing but pain and instability for the rest of my life? I should have died at birth.