I can't sign into my actual account on my chromebook, for some dumb reason. i'm having a bad day. my hands hurt from writing and typing all day, im hungry but i can't the school's food because it makes me sick and i have ISS til the end of the year for the stupidest reason ever! I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts and i really miss my boyfriend. he means everything to me but i know he hates me. i've hurt and manipulated him so much, im a horrible person. im having one of my episodes again and i cant remember if my name is Klara or Kylie. my head feels like its splitting in two but its a very dull pain. i hate this, i cant wait til the day ends and i can see my boyfriend again. our short encounters are the only thing keeping me from ending it right now.