I hate feeling like shit and I get this, but sometimes it's best to get professional help. I know it's hard but I don't want you to die, man

What’s wrong ?

Well yeah you did do something that’s bad, But it’s their choice if they want to forgive you or not, And whether they do or not that’s okay. Though I don’t think sending death threats is okay maybe instead you should try to ignore them I know it’ll be hard but sometimes you have to, (esp if you make them uncomfortable or they just don’t want you to interact.)