i just want to sleep I'm actually sweating bc of my meds bc I didn't eat with them so I'm running on nothing and it's like my brain is hyperaware of everything which is worse at school tbh cuz it makes me super overstimulated and it's hard to mask but I'm at home so I can do whatever but aso I can't move or I get rllybad anxiety like o got up to go get a pencil to draw and my dad was on the living room and he had to ask if I was ok because I was breathing heavily this is the worst I hate taking these things but I keep asking them to up my meds for some reason because theyndont even help me that much

Boy is is so cute I'm gonna cri

His little pink nose and belly is so cute

He looks like he's wearing a tuxedoifs just so cute and he has socks and mittens on like bro

And I love black catsbecause I like how their fur is kinda reflective when they're a shorthair lol boy is fur is like silky bc he cleaned himself every day and also bc his fur is thick well it's not thick but like the follicles are when he sheds his fur it genuinely pierces my clothes sometimes o can't count how many times I've gotten hair splinters for his fur

From

But he's so cute ugh I nee money to take him to the vet but I'm too sick to draw for money and I don't want to beg people for money cuz even if I could take comms I don't wanna tell people what for bc I'm scared someone's gonna think I'm lying also cuz its not anybodoes business but I nee money so bad he keeps having coughing fits I'm really upset I can't take hom

I should be editing

2023 was so weird I have no idea what was going on with me back then

My mom just told me I have to stay up now because it's too late to go to sleep bruh

i don't remember any of 2023 mostly besides that it was a very bad time for me especially the first half when I look back at my old posts i just Look insane

i don't even know what I was doing I have several drawings of me and fishes or random shapes with my character and I was experiencing delusions not hallucinations I was kind of thinking about whether or not I could describe it as psychosis because I was experiencing delusion but I was hallucinating anything at least not that I remember so I don't think so

and I would just talk to myself about things and people that didn't exist I also omg I had like a groupchat with only myself and I would just Talk to myself like full on conversations both negative and positive with myself and I was convinced I was multiple people trapped in one body like not did but I just felt like there was more of me and we were all stuck together in one person but they were all Emmet I don't think they had any differing personalities either and I would always be like thinking about how I needed to seperate from the other Emmet so I could just be like individual and also I would talk to my girlfriend well this wa before we were dating so best friend about this and idk if she was just saying she related so I didn't feel crazy or if she actually related or didn't understand what I really meant because I was Really bad at expressing my emotions properly anyways

I'm not even describing this properly either I don't know how to put what i felt into words

i felt like I was not a real person but everybody around me was and I wasnt meant to be anything more than a concept and not even in a bad I hate myself way i just genuinely felt like I was m eantto be like a big ball of light or something

ok

its probably because I was a will wood fan lel nvm

that whole account was just me autistically replicating photos I saw on pinterest

omg I miss doing this tho

i learned a lot abt color theory from doing this but I also forgot how to draw from doing that and I went from not being able to go a day without drawing to going weeks without drawing and I never recovered from that

its prolly bc I was obsessed with sodikken actually

there's a lot of factors here.

y'all we leaving rn.

can someone just give me a ride sugar glider in adm omg

I'm dying omg when will my meds wear off it's been 11 hours

when ur gone would u even turn to say I dont love u like I did yesterday ~