Like I've I've had a nickel for every time I had to prevent myself from lunging at someone I could afford assault fines /neg I've broken a lot of shit from my rage, and that fuçkin sucks and then we have these goddamn visions in my head after someone pisses me off and I just casually walk over and proceed to brutally mutilate them dear god I see why people joke about me being a serial killer /neg

I'm scared of actually doing somethig you see the brain goes into "teehee you killed someone this is how you get away with it" like I personally don't want to go to jail for my anger taking over and snapping

Mine are a bit uh problematic you see I've bitten people I've chased people around with a baseball bat I can't simply be pissed off without my brain being like ",,,,,kill everyone," um nnnheeegehshshsghs

I've done it with intent of actually bashing their brains in that's not normal

And I was like 9 and I felt nothing but sheer violence I didn't even know it was wrong really

You see my boy therapy is out of the picture, ain't none of my psycho ass family members going to let me get help for this coping only does so much for me anymore besides the only things that chilled me out are not okie dokie anymore

I'm completely broke I have like 15 bucks maybe school counsiler but I'm horrified of people until they like earn my trust somehow