but on a more serious note; my stepmom smokes everyday and it's completely ruined her side of the family and I've been subjected to it my entire life through other girlfriends of my dad's, my dad himself, and now her. So I made this to kind of get into the mindset of how an addict would feel. On one hand they may feel gravitated to have a smoke because they've done it for so long that it's merely part of their routine. And on the other- they may feel a sense of dread and urgency as if they have to do it because the ycan't control or suppress the thoughts.