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24.04.2021
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The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:01
Link:eyes:
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:02
Linkwhat about them?
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:03
LinkWhat?
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:03
Linkeyes?
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:04
Linkoh
Uh
Yeah forget about that
Idk what to type
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:05
Linkoh, ok. so what is going on with you?
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:07
LinkHumana
Humana
I see him.
Rarely but it does happen
I Laugh and smile when I cry
I cant hear my own thoughts,
I don't even know if they are mine anymore
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:09
Linkhm, when do you normally not see him? and how do you feel when you cry?
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The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:10
Link...
I feel depressed when i cry.
I think about wha- Who I'm becoming.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:13
LinkOk, is there any overwhelming stress in your life? is there something that triggers these emotions?
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:16
Link
And why do I need to explain that?
Im sorry But its him who is making me into the person I am
the person I will soon be.
Everything I do is to help forget about him and these thoughts,
The things I do may be bad but I'm only trying to stop something worse.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:18
LinkWhat are you doing? (also you don't have to answer everything I ask)
and I ask these things to get to know your situation
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:20
LinkWhat Im doing is none of your Concern.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:23
Linkoh, ok. he will turn you into what you will become if you let him. there is something you can do about it. because the only person who can stop him, is you.
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:25
LinkI wish.
I've already missed my chance
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:27
LinkThere is no such thing as missing your chance because there will always be another opportunity.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:27
Linkwhen you see an opportunity to get rid of him, take it.
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:29
LinkWhen the only opportunity is death, I think ill try to avoid that.
Though it is the better option
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:30
Linkoh yes please avoid that, also if you don't mind me asking how long has this been going on.
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:32
Link4 years
He left me alone for like a week but he came back
He wasn't really gone either.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:34
Linkfour years? that is a while. Are there any activities that you enjoy doing that will take your mind off of him?
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:36
Link
No
I don't do much "enjoying" anymore.
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Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:38
Linkhow about what you used to do. also, try getting outside once in a while, or everyday
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:39
Linkdo what you used to enjoy doing
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:40
LinkThinking about the person I was just makes it worse.
I know ill never be the same
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:41
Linkᴵ ᵘˢᵉᵈ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉ ˢᵒ ʰᵃᵖᵖʸ...
ᵂʰᵃᵗ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿᵉᵈˀ
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:43
LinkIt will never be exactly the same but you will fall back into your old habits, and eventually feel yourself again. and going outside really helps because you can really enjoy nature and get fresh air.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:44
LinkPeople change, people stay the same, you never really know with people
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The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:47
Linkhhh
i only want this to end.
The only way it will is if he left me alone, But that will never happen.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:50
LinkHow do you know? I bet you did not expect him to stay for four years, it just happened. who knows, he can be gone in month for all you know. you gave up hope on him leaving but if you get the help you need, you could overcome him.
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 13:52
LinkI doubt any of that
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 13:56
LinkYou are kinda inviting him to stay when you say stuff like that. like I said you are the only one who can stop him, but you are also the only person who can get him to stay.
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 14:00
LinkIf im gonna be honest, I dont know what I want.
Hes done nothing wrong
It has just been me
I don't know why I blame him
And I end up saying sorry for no reason
Hes only been nice to me but i know the thought are coming from him.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 14:03
LinkIf you don't mind me asking, what have you done wrong if it is not him?
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 14:05
LinkI don't know.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 14:07
Linkdoes he do anything to you, or interact with you?
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 14:12
LinkHe scared me like 1-2 months ago
I sat in the bathroom and cried
He talks to me and does his best to answer...
Though if I ask anything about his brother or why he did the things he did, He's gonna get mad and yell at me.
Moonshine07[OP]
24.04.2021 14:15
Linkoh, I see. try to have a nice relationship with him then. That is the only thing you can do if he does not do that much to you. also I will talk o you later I have to go pull weeds in the garden
The-Black-Raven
24.04.2021 14:23
Linkmmm
Also, I am friends with him.
I trust him more than I trust myself.