t literally any emotional intelligence or management. I cant even process my own ****ing emotions. the situation has been worrying for years but oh boy I think its getting dire not to worry though, Ill just numb and dissoaciate all of it until it bursts out at some point in the coming months and I either spiral or maybe just. yknow. but probably and hopefully it'll be nothing at all. just usual suffering waves. ah. I dont think I ever stood a chance

Literally just hold on *****es, things tend to get better when you least expect it You gotta be here til then