i dont deserve to live, i dont NEED to live if i died, nothing would change i would cause no rift to our current timeline. i dont matter. i dont fit in. i dont speak colourfully enough. im too monotone.

im not good enougj for this world. i should kill myself n hopefully ill be born anew. somewhere ... far far away ... somewhere i could live peacefully, with family i could trust. i place where i could be myself. i dont get it. when i die or if i kill myself, i get sent to hell ? if i continue being my trans self, ill go to hell ? the one who made us sends us to hell for being something we want to be ? they torture us for wanting to be ourselves after giving us a mind of our own ? what is religion n why is it so crude. why do we have to live life like its a test. we didnt ask for this yet we have to obey them. what do we owe them ? is it bcuz they gave us the miracle of life ? that doesnt make any sense. we werent prepared for this. we didnt ask for this.

its the same as when a mother gives birth to a child. the child owes them nothing. absolutely nothing. the mother was the one who decided the child was to be born. the mother is the one who should be prepared to love them unconditionally. why doesnt the same apply for when the omnipotent being who created us doesnt take responsibility for us. they created all of us. they created humanity. yet they take no responsibility. just like the relationship between a mother n their child, the child shouldnt owe the one that created them anything. bcuuz they didnt decide to be born. they didnt decide their gender. but suddenly they have to accept it. i become trans bcuz i dislike the idea of even being a girl but ill be sent to a firey prison bcuz of my personal preference ? what GREAT responsibility ure taking, "god".

sorry abt the religion rant guys 😬 i actually have a lot to say abt religion, ive always thought abt it is the one who created us punishing me ? n why ? bcuz im myself ? way to take responsibility for ur creations 😂😂😂😂😂

guys this may be a vent but u can like this if u want cuz i ranted abt religion hehe

everything for some reason

i dont rlly know if i want to talk abt it. its just that its abt my family n how bcuz of them, my wrist is messed up n i want to kill myself. that n how lonely i am most of the time

i mean i would since i JUST watched bfdia 19 but idk mayn. im just not feeling too good. maybe ig ?

ure so right. imagine me giving a handshake to cary on stage. that would be awesome

theyll never get how goated we r 🥀

FRR they just jealous im like so cool

n by god himself whaatt

i lovee talkign abt religion, its so very interesting,, i think im agnostic cuz i do believe there is os something or someone who created us but yk, the rest is a blur. theres a hell ??? that doesnt make any sense !!! why would there be a hell if ur creations r the ones u treasure the most !!! what a ****ed up system guys !!

were both cool. were going to cool heaven someday

my charge is runnig out . thanks maxithe nerd i actually feel alot better than before after talking to u cya later im going sleepy bye byes