So I have a fear of not being good enough I think? I'll explain it better but. Ok so I'm writing a fanfiction. 16 people have it saved in their library. I constantly get afraid of what theh think of it or that they'll hate me for writing a new chapter they dont like. So basically I'm afraid of what people think of me, more accurately. I'm scared people hate me for being me and that's kind of why in real life I hide a lot of things about myself because I'm afraid someone will laugh at me for liking something.

I also have a really weird fear that everything around me isnt real. It's hard to explain but it's a lot more toned down now than it was a few years back. Basically, every day we lined up for lunch I was a bit scared to actually get up because I was afraid I was seeing everything around me differently and only I was getting up and everyone was actually in their seats and stared at me in weird silence. Basically, everyone was in the line but I was scared that that was only fake and people were somewhere different and I was just making a fool of myself. It happened with a lot of things. It never really affected me I was just always so scared of it and just. Idk man

I also have a fear of asking questions or asking for help. It's probably not actually odd I just wanted to say it. But. In class maybe I have a question I want to ask but I wont ask it because I am afraid to. I'm not sure why I'm scared of asking questions but it isnt fun. And I'm also scared of asking for help in general. Again. Not sure why but I dont like it.