I feel so empty rn,,

No one is gonna care No one is going to be there,,

Maybe I’m not worth all of that,, I rather just lay down and die slowly

Again I’m saying this,, It makes no sense, Why love someone and be there for them if they aren’t going to do the same?,,

All I can do is laugh off insults And make jokes,, It doesn’t make sense,,

I can only get small talk from people I know in real life, They were never friends. They can label themselves as one. but they were NEVER a friend.

No one is HERE for me. It’s just online. They can try to. They aren’t, That’s it. They really aren’t there for anyone.

It may be those first few seconds of their life, They will ever be there.

I already know of one person who reads through my vents and makes up/says something very ****ing similar after I’m done venting.

It’s stupid. I hate it. I hate you. I won’t expose you tho. Because I already know who you are,, no one else really needs to know.

Why are you doing it? Idfk. Idfc. But please stop it. I’m really trying my hardest not to let these things Get to me, but really it’s so ****ING hard too. I want someone to really understand me. No I’m not going through serious ****ing problems like S3LF H4RM or anything,, but it’s jus my mind telling me I’m ****ing stupid and that I don’t deserve this ****ing great life I have.

This friend I had,, I don’t know if we are really going to be friends ever,, But like,, they were so kind I watched their acc grow, it was great,, like their’s my acc also grew,, Just not as fast. They started to become friend with certain people who would attack me, And soon when I came back to FA one time. They were venting and showing people pictures of their s3lf h4rm scars,, I tried to tell them this wasn’t something I wanted to put up with as well and that I wished they would get help. Their ***** ass friend ****ing came at me yelling at me and telling me this and that, I hated it, I felt like I was the one doing the wrong thing and I was the bad person.

I knew someone else who also showed their s3lf h4rm scars IN PUBLIC. they would often roll up their sleeves, It pained me because at the time we were in a relationship. Literally. And I couldn’t help but tear and tell them to stop doing it. Soon enough they later went and cheated on me, it was painful but when they tried coming back to me I had already gotten over them, now they are after my ****ing cousin,,

This ****ing headache I swear to god. IM GOING TO JUST ****ING GO I CANT ****ING TAKE THIS HEADACHE,, plus I need to eat something,, haven’t eaten anything today so,,

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I don’t need help,, I don’t want to waste your time,

I don’t need it. I just want to say what’s wrong with me right now. It’s always something different. I’m getting a headache already so please,, Just let me finish.

Everything.

I don’t know,, Does it look like I’m okay? No I’m not,, but thanks for at least asking,,

No I’m good..

No it’s fine really,, I’m fine,,

I’m just going to spill out all of my emotions instead,, I don’t really want to talk to someone about it,, but thanks,,

Okay,, Thank you,