Mkay...

I'm thinking about doing it I don't have much friends anymore anyway and even though my relationship with my family is getting a little better. I still don't have enough strength to keep it up I'm sorry I thought I could do better too

I'll have to tie up a few loose ends but I can guess it'll be soon My head feels like it's rotting and my body feels like it's heavier than a ship ahah My heart feels heavy too I just don't know what to hope for anymore and I apologize for that I'll try not to bother anyone anymore