Got overemotional about some fuking rp and now things are shit

Now I can’t rp cuz I know I’ll get overemotional about some dumb shut again and it’s all my fault it’s all my ****ing fault

Also thunderstorming outside which is so hot ggg

I made a joke and I guess it wasn’t funny,,

No but this always happens I swear to god I wanna stop roleplaying now I can never do anything right..

I’m actually having a straight ****ing panic attack this never happens uh

Yes I just took them

Takes them a half an hour at least to kick in

I have water here, sitting in the bathroom cuz it’s storming and I’m about to ****ing puke Please stay with me please

When you have panic attacks what helps?

I can’t stop texting them they’ll flip out on me,, text me over and over again until I respond

I should have shut the **** up

Always

No you don’t understand they’ll lose it on me, they’ll call me selfish like they did before, that stuff still hurts me

I have to stay and argue I have to, it’s just how it’s always been

Oh I wish it was that easy...I really do Thank you for talking with me

It means so much you’re helping me

I’ve stopped shaking so bad thx to you

Very special

God I just want it to be over, but if I leave they’ll say I’m just like I’ve always been

I just don’t want to be held for how I was in the past They always,, do that

Do I hold it against them they let a stranger on the internet who never met me, tell them I was all of these horrible things, then proceed to call me out with what this stranger said? Don’t hold it against them anymore,, not forgotten, but I set it aside

Why won’t they do the same

But I’m the angry one tho right...I’m the one who never talks..

It’s always some argument, something new every few days Things are great but I sit in constant anxiety of whatever will spark the next one

The worst part is going to sleep feeling as horrible as I do somtimes

Lemme ask you something Do you ever think theirs a light at the end of the tunnel? You think someone can be truly happy?

True that I told them I needed a break, it’s what’s best and I’m sticking by that

You calmed me down a lot, thank you really I’m not shaking or scratching at myself now

No not really actually The meds are definitely starting to kick in

That’s true Geez youre really caring for someone who thinks they ain’t ✨

Well you helped me a lot tonight, I can’t thank you enough And for sticking with me for all of this

Me too honestly, it feels nice to have someone I can calmly vent to without getting yelled at or making them insecure

You’ve been such a big help getting me through this I can’t thank you enough

Are you feeling any better at all yourself?

Awhhhhhhdhfhdj what’s her name??

Omh piper is such an empowering name

I ****iqng adore that did you name her yourself?

That’s absolutely amazing, I named my cat pingu

Exactly

Yes ma’am I do

Oh nuuuu

Omg fr?

Omg wack

That’s amazing omh

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