So- I’ve looked into it. I am really being mentally abused by my mother and step dad… And I could report it to child protective services again… But I don’t think they can fix anything. They didn’t last time. Well- they fixed somethings - so that I don’t have to go through the physical toll and the torture I had to endure- but I wasn’t hit or anything so they couldn’t take me away. But I wonder what would happen if I did so now? I feel horrible I feel ungrateful I should be able to handle it. Hold on the next few years. But I feel my grip slipping. I could call. I could see what they can do. Or I can suffer in silence. I don’t know why this is so hard… Actually- I feel mom will be livid when she finds out. She’ll yell at me- and blame me for being ungrateful and pathetic- and not just going to her to talk it through- but when I do that everything I say isn’t valid….

I can’t bring myself to do it

There is no way to talk to her about it. I’ve tried.