****ing it feels like this is going to be permanent. IT IS. My pessimism is taking over and I just can't and I don't want to loose her and I care so much and I can't accept she's gone. She's ****ing gone and it's because I wasn't trying hard enough to pay attention to her. I WASN'T HELPING HER. When someone leaves their account it feels like their death becuase i can never talk to them again and I just ****ING CAN'T. I CAN'T LOSE TWO PEOPLE IN 4 DAYS. I CAN'T. I feel like im overreacting but maybe if i beg enough she'll come back but i dont even know her so why should i be upset?? I just feel she was so nice! I love her like a sister! I broke down ****ING crying.